everything at once.

1) I have not posted anything in a long time, and one of my new year's resolutions was to write in this more often.

2) Sometimes I write something, then delete it because i don't want anyone to read it. Even though I advertise this site. Deep down, I really do want people to read this. Just a lot of the times I put up a front to make a good impression on certain people. I'm not necessarily trying to be something I'm not, because the majority of the time I could care less what people think of me, and I'm too honest for my own good. But I like to present myself well to new people. I help them, get to know me, before really getting knowing me?

3) Sometimes I write/say/think too much without meaning too ^^^

4) I'm starting to question what I really want.

5) Well, I know I what I want, but other options are beginning to be very tempting.

6) I had everything I wanted to write planned in my head, but i don't think any of these numbers have been one of them. I can't really recall what i was planning on posting anyways.

7) I'm embarrassed to tell people about my band, and my passion for music and everything that goes with it. But that's what i want to do for the rest of my life. I put all my time and money into my band, but when people talk to me about it, i pretend like i don't really care because i feel stupid and I'm embarrassed. And that's just shady.

8) I used to hate the word shady, and anyone who used it.

9) I am doing so terrible in school right now. And I am so ridiculously behind in Lit and Stats. But for some reason i still do absolutely nothing. I've been sitting on the couch watching TV for the past few hours, when i could have done Lit homework from two weeks ago that i still have yet to complete.



12) I have so much more to write, but it's late, and i'm tired. plus i don't want my parents to come out and yell at me for being on the computer this late.

13) my family fights way to much. about everything.

good night.

14) I posted this, then went back and edited it because I forgot to spell check it. I hate spelling words wrong.