Finally.

For once in my life i feel as if everything is going according to plan, but yet, i have no real plan at all. Just a gut feeling and a passion in my heart that tells me to run blindly down this sightless tunnel, with promise of fortune at the end. And for some unknown reason, that completely calms me down. I have faith and trust that this will work, but what am i putting my faith and trust in? Is it God? I'd like to think yes, but i can't say for sure. Is it me? Is it purely in fate; Up in the air for anyone to grab? All i know is God, gave me a purpose. I've never said that so bluntly before. One probably wouldn't believe me, but i've been trying to convince myself the opposite. I still don't truly believe it. But when my hair is on end as my skin prickles up, and my brain is shooting neurons so fast that it completely shuts down and I am engulfed in the moment... How can i deny that? I'm finally doing what i always said (half jokingly) i would. And it feels so good, and i haven't even started. I'm just slowly seeing things, pointless meaningless things, fall into place, and I feel like young child overwhelmed at Disney Land for the first time. This one time it's okayto quote paramore, "We(I) were born for this."