Gone.

The one thing i had going for me. The one thing that i excelled at, and loved doing, gone. I wish i could control others minds, and let them see what i see, and let them feel what i feel. I could make them all bleed passion and dedication. They would be able to see into the future. See what they could've been. I could get rid of all of my problems. I wish i could just go back. But then again, if the past asked if it could come back, i'm not sure what i would say. I wish, for once, everything could work out. I thought everything would work out for the better, but it sure doesn't seem like it. Like a dope fiend, my addiction is beginning to take over. I can't focus for five seconds with out the memories flashing through my head. I truly need this. I don't know what to do with out it. I've tried different substitutes and they just weren't the same. I need something of greater or equal value to subdue my pain, to make me content, to complete me, to make me happy.